A few years prior to my health taking a catastrophic nosedive, I had overcome a major hurdle in my relationship with Jesus--I had finally started being real with Him. What I mean by that is that I began to actually see Him as someone I wanted to have a relationship with, someone that I wanted to share my heart and thoughts with, someone that I could trust...or at least wanted to trust. Sometimes my desire to see Jesus as trustworthy has been all I could offer to Him. I feel like it's been enough, that He understands and doesn't expect more from me.